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So, in 2 weeks of writing I've managed 8,000 words. Must be some kind of record. The irony is though its not a good quality of words. This current piece of work is going to be sub-standard. Just reading over it doesn't make me well up insight with glee. What I do read just looks like words written in a functional way. It means what it means but has no style to it. It's dull also. Perhaps thats my tiredness talking. When I wake up tomorrow it might seem better.
It better.

Needless to say mr. pf is not a happy bunny. The stress of it all is getting to me. In 2 weeks it will all be over but at the moment, I just can't see that far ahead.

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It's late. I should be thinking about sleeping but I'm not. Instead I'm thinking about my Dissertation. It is /almost/ all encompassing. It's there every minute of the day. Just lurking there. It might be the thought that I'm away from it and not actively doing anything with it or it might be the thought that i'm seriously running out of time or it might be the thought that I have explained or expanded on this or that. Perhaps I've missed something. Perhaps it's all incoherent crap that switches between tenses.
Needless to say:
1. it's a headache.
2. i want it to go away.
3. i want to finish it.
4. i just want it to pass.
5. i hate the sight of it.
6. i'd like some additional time to do it.
7. and another hundred different things.

Alas, it's due in 2 weeks. And in 2 weeks and 3 days I return to 'normal' life which means earning money and getting a job. Scary. I hate looking for jobs at the best of times but this next one is of increased significance. I will have completed my CELTA and a Masters since I last had a job. I'd be gutted if all that studying was in vain. I mean, in terms of career, professional development, conditions, benefits and of course in terms of the wad of money that gets paid into my Bank Account once a month. It all needs to be better than before. Otherwise what a waste.

Suggestions/ideas/job offers are more than welcome.
CV and references are available on request.
Oh yes and I quite like teaching but am definitely a leader and a team-player when it is necessary.

Sigificant

F*ing writing.
Honestly this dissertation will not be getting handed in on time. Progress is slow and what I'm writing is crap. It's functional and is to the point but its not going to win any prizes. At this rate, i'll be done in September which is wholly unsatisfactory.

Just got to keep going though.
That's it really.
As someone once said, keep going.

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Yep, so I was in Paris. Warm, sunny and a million miles away from Edinburgh's summer. Really rather nice. Alas 3 days was not enough to trawl through all the 'highlights' particularly the Louvre. It's a strange but fascinating place. Seems as if the hordes simply make a b-line for the wing in which the Mona Lisa is situated, leaving the 3 other wings largely devoid of people which is some respects is awful given the wealth of art in those 3 wings but from a purely selfish point of view, its great because you get time to look at the paintings with getting hassled or caught up with a tour group.

It's interesting that a large amount of the collections depict Jesus. Whether that be him being born or as an infant or his final moments on the cross. I guess when they were painted, Western Europe was largely devoutly Christian so it comes as no surprise that such paintings exist. That said it is remarkable that such paintings are completely Westernised version of the 'event's' surrounding Jesus' life and it is this version that persists to this day. It's just accepted that Jesus was this Western looking bloke surrounded by lush green landscapes. However, surely its all a big lie. He wasn't 'Western' nor was his immediate environment lush and green, indeed it would have been dusty, dry and lacking in greenary.

Surely its a distortion of history...and one that put me off some of the paintings on show. It's not particlarly a Louvre issue, in fact some of the other Galleries I visited were much the same. I guess though all paintings are in some respects distortions of reality anyway.

Doubt

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.....Might help to fill in some of the blanks.

blow-whole.

July is nearly done.
Still waiting for the Summer to arrive to be honest but today I think that the Summer might well and truly be over. Nothing much to look forward to - just a monster of a Dissertation which hasn't really started yet. 15, 000 words in 3 weeks. Haha.

It's all in my head. Honest.

Alas, July has been interesting. Both in a good way, a bad way. Perhaps I'll get round to filling in the blanks later along with posting some photos.

On the 'to do list'. Amongst other things.

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Been busy.
Which, for once, is actually true.
I started teaching again last week. I had a class of 16 Austrians to contend with but thankfully they were fine. Being teenagers there was every chance of getting a couple of them who were 'pains' and this group was no different. One of them just didn't want to do anything. So, I beat him around the head until he promised to show something motivation. I didn't actually but the idea was in my head.

This week I have spaniards, a few Swiss, an Italian, an Icelander and a Russian. A bit of a melting point but could be worse. I even asked one of them to leave the class! It was more of a 'go outside and calm down' malarky but it felt good to get the 1st one out of the way.

Alas, i've not really had a chance to say much about the wedding. I'm not sure I really have to. I think it spoke for itself. I will simply wish the happy couple the best of luck for the future.

Might get round to an update soon but might not given the arrival of someone unexpected.